Maybe its because it's the night before birthday, or maybe the new year, but its almost one in the morning and i can't sleep because of all the silly thoughts rambling around in my head. So, why not blog about it... feel free to skip this post. So why post this at all, because i think i feel that if i don't share, or send out to the universe, (or whatever you want to call it) what i've learned the past year, what's the point in my going through the heartache of learning it all.
I realize now that this past year or so i've become so preoccupied with one goal that i lost site of what was really so important in my life. Something that is supposed to be a joyous event began to suck the joy out of my life. I began to try to force a piece into a puzzle so hard that i almost completely forgot about the beautiful picture the piece would help create. And now looking back, i wonder if the piece even belongs in my puzzle at all. I finally see that whether or not that piece fits in, i have a wonderful life as is. I blindly got mad, and angry when i couldn't get what i wanted. i thought that i must be doing something so wrong. but i was just looking at it all wrong. i realized i needed to stop getting mad. it was serving no purpose. and instead see the lesson i was given. I could, so easily, have nothing. I was losing what i had right in front of me, because i just wanted more.
As i've come to this realization, i feel blessed. i know now that what i have been given has been nothing more than a miracle. This past year has proven that.
ramble.....
2 comments:
you are just amazing tricia! Don't worry... whatever is suppose to happen in life, will happen. Have faith, have hope, and go about your life. of course, you should do all that you can do, but then, after that, it really is not up to you. Someone once gave me this advice when I was really struggling with something, and it really gave me something to think about... "Carry on. Do not let this consume your life. There is still so much for you to do."
Good ramblings. Good to get it out, say it, even if you don't think it makes sense. And in the middle of all of it, it somehow does make sense. Years ago, as a young mother, I was struggling to make it all happen and I attended a seminar with Stephen R. Covey. He said two things that really helped me: "This too shall pass", and "Roll with the punches." And I just heard another one yesterday: Ken Hudson once said: "If your mad, you're wrong." Take that one and run with it! Good to find your blog site. You can find mine on Lana's blog site. You look fabulous!
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