Maybe its because it's the night before birthday, or maybe the new year, but its almost one in the morning and i can't sleep because of all the silly thoughts rambling around in my head. So, why not blog about it... feel free to skip this post. So why post this at all, because i think i feel that if i don't share, or send out to the universe, (or whatever you want to call it) what i've learned the past year, what's the point in my going through the heartache of learning it all.
I realize now that this past year or so i've become so preoccupied with one goal that i lost site of what was really so important in my life. Something that is supposed to be a joyous event began to suck the joy out of my life. I began to try to force a piece into a puzzle so hard that i almost completely forgot about the beautiful picture the piece would help create. And now looking back, i wonder if the piece even belongs in my puzzle at all. I finally see that whether or not that piece fits in, i have a wonderful life as is. I blindly got mad, and angry when i couldn't get what i wanted. i thought that i must be doing something so wrong. but i was just looking at it all wrong. i realized i needed to stop getting mad. it was serving no purpose. and instead see the lesson i was given. I could, so easily, have nothing. I was losing what i had right in front of me, because i just wanted more.
As i've come to this realization, i feel blessed. i know now that what i have been given has been nothing more than a miracle. This past year has proven that.
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I had to share this picture. We were at the children's museum and apparently Indy and Olivia were on their way home from grocery shopping. Whew... tuff work!
Indy and I went up to the downtown library for the Chinese New Year celebration. I wanted her to see the dragon dance. But the stupid people started it 15min before the time on the web page, so we missed it! Lame! But we had fun just being at that amazing library. Really, if you've never been, it's something to see for sure.
